I wonder if my children, in all their struggles, are really happy they were born?
One really has no choice whether s/he is born or not. It is always up to the adults' rational or irrational raging hormones and thought processes. And then after one is born, the environment may or may not be one full of opportunities for positive growth and learning about love, respect, commitment, real joy, fulfillment, etc.
Yet, I believe that even if some or many of those influences on one tiny life are negative, one can grow to become a positive, healthy individual. And I've seen the greatest miracle of all, besides giving birth, is that of a heart changed by God.
I know that I'm full of wonderment and thankfulness that my children were born into my life. Only God could have known what I needed. They have shown me joy, been my teachers and completely added new dimensions of understanding to me personally about unconditional love, myself and the world around me. Without them, I would be so incomplete. I take this time to thank God for all he continues to bless me with and teach me through the eyes of my children.
That grandchildren have been added to my heart is a wonderful reawakening of the joy of life from a wide-open innocent view. Thank you, God, for grandchildren, too. Bonding with grandchildren are moments mighty and reverent.
Sometimes I've questioned why would I be born into this world, or why others have been born into such wretchedness, killed by evil? There are no answers, only that I am here, now. What I decide to do with each moment is the open choice God gives me.
I've severely disappointed and disrespected Him with many of my choices. I pray forgiveness and stand again to face each moment with perseverance and inner joy, knowing I am loved and that I do matter in His scheme of eternity. He will sustain me.
