Decided to call in sick for work today. After I began walking, it felt so right. NO I'm not sick, except that there is really nothing to do at work, I've compiled my files and done the home visits so it would be 'making up' something to do. The preschoolers start next week. I decided my time would be better spent at home. As is my pattern, my finances have gotten out of control; only this time it is dental bills. My teeth have started their 'old age' symptoms in earnest.

 I've also been reeling this week in a depression funk. I think I came down hard from my wonderful vacation, what with the dental work and dad's ER trip to the hospital for his heart...he's fine, but it left it's toll on me. The fact that he is failing in health doesn't bother me so much as his refusal to see it in reality. And his cognitive skills are poor; no concentration to follow through and his conversations are hard to decipher. And, as always, he is morbid about anything he talks about whether it is personal or world affairs. He demeans me constantly, even when he doesn't think he is and doesn't get it.

 I've set a goal to retire in two years. My CEO have graciously consented to letting me rent a little house they bought as investment and will remodel it to my liking. I can't thank them enough. I stayed in it this summer and it has a wonderful garden/landscape, a nice garage, screened in porch. Can't wait to get up there with family!

 I thank God for my blessings, children and grandchildren, my sister and her hubby. I ask God to bless and keep them for his kingdom. Amen.