The Week in a Blur

So much has happened in the last little while, ican't even remember when I last attempted to blog (without referring back to the actual blog). I've revised the old resume, sent it out, traveled to interview, come back to work many hours overtime to ready things for parent-teacher conferences and spring break and now have company from Portland! It's a wild ride some weeks.

And yes, I got the job in WW! So I'm moving again. Ugh and quadruple ugh. I'm wondering whether to just have a garage sale of EVERYTHING, donate the rest to the thrift store and be done with it. Trouble is, I know I won't have a scrap of money to buy ANYTHING when I arrive at my new place....a new place! Oh, no! I have to apt. shop again! Glug.

I also am wondering why I feel the need to wander the earth like this. Oh, I have my reasons..or excuses..whichever you'd like to name them, but, really, what's that underlying soul reason? There must be something that is making me wander. As my spring break begins, I begin to doubt leaving this area, though I've complained bitterly about it. Spring is nice, you know?
The time for seeing the 'sights' in the area have just begun and I decide to leave? What am I really thinking? Am I going nuts? Maybe I will be after my next move!

Here I go, again.

I can't believe it's the time of year I need to seriously think of where I want to work next year. There are a couple of possibilities and believe it or not, I have an interview the 26th in WW. I have doubts about this one, trying to second guess God and myself. It all seems to be too easy, just like the trip here, which ended up costing me an extra big bundle.

I really do want to retire in a small community like this, next to the ocean with clean air, simpler living. I don't like having to travel for an hour (or more) to get to a a major department store other than Walmart or Big K, or to have other recreation like concerts and the special program varieties that come through the big cities.

Yet, I'm still not convinced I want to live in the valley of the WW. But family is there. It will greatly depend on the job and housing and extra expenses.

Being here has forced me into cooking more if I continue to eat healthier on my vegan diet (which sadly, has disintegrated here!). In WW, I know there are a lot more readily available resources for that lifestyle.

I've missed spiritual fellowship here. There, I would have more opportunities.

Pros and Cons, pluses and minuses. One step at a time.

I think my life is a bit like a Scrabble game. Some play for points, some play for adventurous words. Some play for both..or there may be other combo's. I tend to play for the adventurous words and then don't do so well when points are added at the end. Even my adventurous words turn out to be not so adventurous sometimes. Sometimes I play for points only and feel like gloating at the end, but that's not what it's all about, is it?

Oh, I know, Hokey Pokey is what it's all about. Yeah, I forgot.
"Ya do the Hokey Pokey and
Ya turn yursef' around,
Thas' wha' it's all about!

Back to Tired, Boring: Repeat

Work is really busy. I've had 12 hour days and am still behind. The kids are really acting out and their allergies, which have all 'bloomed' don't help. They are either totally spaced out or acting out in the worst way. Stress is building as I try to get my resume revamped for a possible move and look at finances. When will I ever learn to handle my finances well? AARRGGHHH!!!!

I'm very, very, very thankful it is the weekend, but it goes by much too quickly. I'm thankful for family and friends' posts on their blogs and phone calls so I don't have to leave the house to catch up on news. Now, is that lazy, or what!?!

I'm frustrated with my stupid health insurance that they won't pay for my allergy meds! But, I'm thankful I have flex plan to cover it.

I'm frustrated that I can't seem to get my lazy a.. off the couch to go exercise and keep eating into oblivion. When will I ever get past "Living to eat" to "Eating to Live"? Seems between all the healthy meals I eat, I'm eating an exorbitant amount of junk food, which I am definitely sure, cancels out any of the healthy foods I eat. AAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!

Biggest decision of the day so far? Should I go to Curves or Walk? It is looking a lot like rain....wait, the couch is calling me. The day is still young, I still have time to decide.

Sunday Hope

Well, here it is Sunday. Barb was going to come visit this weekend and I was all excited, as her BD is coming up and I made vegetable Lasagna, bought an angel food cake with frozen yogurt and berries. (I'll eat the lasagna. The cake went into the freezer. Then, she got sick. Pout!

A couple of friends called me this weekend saying they just were 'sick and tired', depressed and feeling horrible. It's that time of year, isn't it? I ache for them. If I think about that too long, I, too, tend to go down that road. But right now, too much is going on to dwell too long on being depressed.

I'm going to be a Grandma (my heart sings that song to me often!) Work is busier this time of year. I'm nervous on the inside as I don't know whether I'll be working here next year or not. (I got a good evaluation review the other day, by the way). I'm nervous about getting my income tax done. BLah! I certainly hope I get a return and don't have to pay anything since I moved halfway through the year! I'm also concerned I need to do some professional development; go to a conference or something, and since this district deems professional development monies as frivolous, will have to pay for it myself...gulp. Where to get about $500 for a conference and lodging? Well, it will work out somehow. Trust. I have to Trust. So hard to do.

Spring is on its way (eternal hope), even though it was snowing last week. The days are longer and brighter. Oh, glorious spring! The downside: I had to buy more allergy pills, which my insurance didn't deem fit to pay for! Those buggers are expensive! Good thing I have a flexplan.

Thoughts running a maze through my brain. Many thoughts, varied thoughts, busy thoughts. Coffee...had some this a.m. Wahoo! I'm on a roll........I'm taking off, now. Up, up and away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!